few days before march 8 i had a gutt feeling
i was troubled and was missing you badly
i kept waking up with you on my mind
those days i know something bad will happen
march 8 and i went to your house, thoughtlessly.
i wanted to prove something, i have to.
they told me you went out for church
the gutt feeling now became stronger
you phoned me back, i was still begging
jumped into my street bike and speed up to your house.
waited for a bit, i saw you happy with him.
but looked troubled when you saw me there, are there no guilt at all?
you looked composed, i know you are afraid
you showed me how strong you are
before i rode away, i took a glance of you.
mercilessly crushed me seeing you with another guy.
that is march 8, someday all the curses i had because of you will haunt you lives.
mercilessly...
Monday, March 9, 2020
someone
i have met someone whom i loved 14 yrs ago
is this how old am i? (smile)
i held her hands and gave her a warm kiss
shared some bottle of beers and chitchat with our ex’s
almost cried but subdued the emotions.
left thinking how will it be if we gave ourselves a chance
at 3am, she filled my lifeless soul
tapping my shoulder, “im just here for you”..
is this how old am i? (smile)
i held her hands and gave her a warm kiss
shared some bottle of beers and chitchat with our ex’s
almost cried but subdued the emotions.
left thinking how will it be if we gave ourselves a chance
at 3am, she filled my lifeless soul
tapping my shoulder, “im just here for you”..
Friday, March 6, 2020
releasing the pain
my friends told me to keep myself busy
i am keeping myself busy
but as im done with the things im doing,
pain creeps into my mind again.
i am keeping myself busy
but as im done with the things im doing,
pain creeps into my mind again.
Thursday, March 5, 2020
a friend
today i had a chat with a friend
someone who went through same fiend
consoled me from his experience
and slapped me with truth that she’ll never be back
he gave me a short story about love cycle
a cycle i was breaking while she does not seem to notice
ARE YOU WITH THE RIGHT PARTNER?
During a seminar, a woman asked
"How do I know if I am with the right person?"
The author then noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so he said, "It depends. Is that your partner?
"In all seriousness, she answered
"How do you know?"
Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind
replied the author.
Here's the answer.
Every relationship has a cycle… In the beginning; you
fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls,
want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love.
People in love sometimes say,
"I was swept of my feet."
Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU.
Falling in love is a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.
Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.
At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?" And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you
may begin to desire that experience with someone
else. This is when relationships breakdown.
The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.
People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.
Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.
Because (listen carefully to this):
The key to succeeding in a Relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the Person you found.
SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know
WHAT TO DO to make it work. Make no mistake about it!
Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner), Just as there are physical laws Of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. If you know how to apply these laws, the results are predictable.
Love is therefore a "decision". Not just a feeling.
Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO!
Written by Crown Malone via tumblr
someone who went through same fiend
consoled me from his experience
and slapped me with truth that she’ll never be back
he gave me a short story about love cycle
a cycle i was breaking while she does not seem to notice
ARE YOU WITH THE RIGHT PARTNER?
During a seminar, a woman asked
"How do I know if I am with the right person?"
The author then noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so he said, "It depends. Is that your partner?
"In all seriousness, she answered
"How do you know?"
Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind
replied the author.
Here's the answer.
Every relationship has a cycle… In the beginning; you
fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls,
want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love.
People in love sometimes say,
"I was swept of my feet."
Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU.
Falling in love is a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.
Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.
At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?" And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you
may begin to desire that experience with someone
else. This is when relationships breakdown.
The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.
People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.
Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.
Because (listen carefully to this):
The key to succeeding in a Relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the Person you found.
SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know
WHAT TO DO to make it work. Make no mistake about it!
Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner), Just as there are physical laws Of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. If you know how to apply these laws, the results are predictable.
Love is therefore a "decision". Not just a feeling.
Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO!
Written by Crown Malone via tumblr
quiet heart
im thinking about you again today
with a quiet heart im missing you badly
im thinking to let you go your way
with a quiet heart im hoping you’ll be okay
im thinking about what you want today
with a quiet heart i know you’ll reach them someday
im thinking about our reality lately
with a quiet heart i cant figure out if you will still accept me
im thinking about our fond memories today
with a quiet heart it seems they just happened lately
im thinking how is your heart today
with a quiet heart i wish i’ll be with you someday
with a quiet heart im missing you badly
im thinking to let you go your way
with a quiet heart im hoping you’ll be okay
im thinking about what you want today
with a quiet heart i know you’ll reach them someday
im thinking about our reality lately
with a quiet heart i cant figure out if you will still accept me
im thinking about our fond memories today
with a quiet heart it seems they just happened lately
im thinking how is your heart today
with a quiet heart i wish i’ll be with you someday
Wednesday, March 4, 2020
mercy and forgiveness
i remember the days i cried so much i can’t even talk
i lost my sanity, begging you for mercy
i dont know why i was being treated as a cast away
i lost my sanity, reaching out to anyone who could let you listen
i dont know what to do why am i have gotten this low
i lost my sanity, drinking every night just to fall asleep
i dont know why you have to leave me this way
i lost my sanity, i wanted to kill myself to get rid of the pain
i dont know what am i going to do the next day, and the following days
i lost my sanity, why am i bearing pain and punishment
i dont know who to turn to, or who to lay my head to
i lost my sanity, i cried for you more than i cried for my late father
i dont know how to handle the pain you have cause than how i can handle the pain of loosing a father
i lost my sanity, im still crying until now even though you told me not to expect anything anymore
i lost my sanity, begging you for mercy
i dont know why i was being treated as a cast away
i lost my sanity, reaching out to anyone who could let you listen
i dont know what to do why am i have gotten this low
i lost my sanity, drinking every night just to fall asleep
i dont know why you have to leave me this way
i lost my sanity, i wanted to kill myself to get rid of the pain
i dont know what am i going to do the next day, and the following days
i lost my sanity, why am i bearing pain and punishment
i dont know who to turn to, or who to lay my head to
i lost my sanity, i cried for you more than i cried for my late father
i dont know how to handle the pain you have cause than how i can handle the pain of loosing a father
i lost my sanity, im still crying until now even though you told me not to expect anything anymore
missin u after a month of breakup
every day i kept in thinking
why? why did u left me floating.
every night i kept on wondering
why? why the sudden change of mind?
every day i kept on guessing
why? why im no longer worthy.
every night my heart kept on crying
why? why did you pushed me too far
every day i kept on waiting
why? why can’t i talk to you?
every night i kept on thinking
why? why am i left alone and crying
its been a month now
its been a month of lifeless heart
its been a month of mental and emotional torture
its been a month of anxiety
its been a month of you happiness with your new love
its been a month that i begged you to love me again
its been a month already and im still the same, longing
i didnt know you were as harsh as this
i didnt know that the lack of time must be punished like this
i didnt know that the 4 years of my love and loyalty means nothing now
and i kept on asking... why??
why? why did u left me floating.
every night i kept on wondering
why? why the sudden change of mind?
every day i kept on guessing
why? why im no longer worthy.
every night my heart kept on crying
why? why did you pushed me too far
every day i kept on waiting
why? why can’t i talk to you?
every night i kept on thinking
why? why am i left alone and crying
its been a month now
its been a month of lifeless heart
its been a month of mental and emotional torture
its been a month of anxiety
its been a month of you happiness with your new love
its been a month that i begged you to love me again
its been a month already and im still the same, longing
i didnt know you were as harsh as this
i didnt know that the lack of time must be punished like this
i didnt know that the 4 years of my love and loyalty means nothing now
and i kept on asking... why??
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